I know I have not been updating my blog much. Well close to a year, really. When you have 2 growing up kids, they take a lot of your time - especially when you are a working mom too.
So anyway, my darling Princess Auni is already 4 going on 5 this year. My dear cutie-pie Ulfa is already 20mths old. And I'm currently pregnant with baby no. 3.
I went for a scan a few weeks back and was told that there is 80% chance that the baby is a girl. Auni who was in the room with me exclaimed, "Girl?! Another girl! 3 girls!" Haha...she was hoping for a boy obviously.
Well this time round, it didn't matter whether it is a boy or girl. What matters is that the baby is healthy. Baby's edd is 14 May 2012.
It is always exciting when expecting a child. Auni already knows that she is having another sister. I need to prepare Ulfa for the baby. She is so attached to me.
Showing posts with label baby. Show all posts
Showing posts with label baby. Show all posts
Sunday, January 8, 2012
Wednesday, January 26, 2011
A Letter To My Girls- Part 2
Dear Cutie Pie (a name Daddy concocted),
As I write this, you are already 10 months old. Mummy has just returned to the workforce. I miss you terribly when I'm working. It is heartbreaking to hear you wail each time I leave you for work. If given a choice, Mummy would love to stay home to care for you and your sister. Unfortunately financial constraints do not permit me to do so and thus here I am, at work, typing this letter out, while visualising the smile on your face.
My cutie pie, you are a bundle of joy. You make it easy for Mummy to care for you. You are full of laughter. You are indeed, a happy baby, full of joy and laughter. Even though you are only 10months old, I can see the love you have for me, Daddy and your sister.
I look forward to see your smile and how your face brightens up each time you see me. I'm sure you notice how happy I am to see you too after a long day at work.
My dear cutie pie, I feel really guilty each time I work late. Trust me I do try my best to return home as quickly as I can. However, sometimes work really takes its toll and unfortunately I have to take work home too. I hope you forgive me should I have not been spending enough time with you at home now. I really want to provide you and your sister with a better life.
Now, you've started to call me "Mama". I feel so touched and loved each time I hear you calling me that.
The name 'Cutie Pie' that Daddy concocted for you really suits you. You are indeed one of the cutest baby I've ever seen.
I love your chuckle and your gurgle, your smile and your smell. I truly love everything about you my dear.
Regards,
Mummy
As I write this, you are already 10 months old. Mummy has just returned to the workforce. I miss you terribly when I'm working. It is heartbreaking to hear you wail each time I leave you for work. If given a choice, Mummy would love to stay home to care for you and your sister. Unfortunately financial constraints do not permit me to do so and thus here I am, at work, typing this letter out, while visualising the smile on your face.
My cutie pie, you are a bundle of joy. You make it easy for Mummy to care for you. You are full of laughter. You are indeed, a happy baby, full of joy and laughter. Even though you are only 10months old, I can see the love you have for me, Daddy and your sister.
I look forward to see your smile and how your face brightens up each time you see me. I'm sure you notice how happy I am to see you too after a long day at work.
My dear cutie pie, I feel really guilty each time I work late. Trust me I do try my best to return home as quickly as I can. However, sometimes work really takes its toll and unfortunately I have to take work home too. I hope you forgive me should I have not been spending enough time with you at home now. I really want to provide you and your sister with a better life.
Now, you've started to call me "Mama". I feel so touched and loved each time I hear you calling me that.
The name 'Cutie Pie' that Daddy concocted for you really suits you. You are indeed one of the cutest baby I've ever seen.
I love your chuckle and your gurgle, your smile and your smell. I truly love everything about you my dear.
Regards,
Mummy
Wednesday, June 30, 2010
On conceiving Princess
My eldest sis-in-law gave birth to a bundling baby boy on 17 February 2007. My parents, my brothers and I were elated. He is my parents' first grandchild and my first nephew. I was genuinely happy for my brother and sis-in-law. Though I wanted a child badly, having a nephew sort of lessen the pain a little.
I remember when we visited sis-in-law in the hospital, her stepmum was there. She knew about my miscarriages. Before she left, she touched my tummy and said, "Take some blessings from here and may you conceive".
Shortly after, I did conceive. But upon conceiving Princess, I was hit with a turmoil of emotions I wasn't ready to feel. I was happy that I was pregnant. But I did not want to be too happy. I was scared that if I get too happy, I might be disappointed should I miscarry. I was scared yet I do not want to think about it.
Hubby was not spared of this too. I forbid hubby to talk about it. When he tried talking about my pregnancy, I would shut him off. I remembered sis-in-law congratulated me when she learnt about my pregnancy from mum. I broke down and told her that I did not want to talk about it.
Every ultrasound scan I prayed for a heartbeat. Once we hit the 3mths mark, I was really hoping that the foetus in me was still alive. I remembered checking my breast for soreness because the soreness actually soothed me into believing that I was still pregnant. At my 3mths ultrasound scan, they could not detect the baby via the scan on my tummy so they had to do a vaginal scan. Hubby was asked to leave the room. I was so scared when the radiologists was trying to detect the foetal heartbeat. Finally the found it. I cried and they asked me why and I told them about my previous two miscarriages. They assured me that everything would be fine.
Throughout my pregnancy, I spoke about it little. Towards my full-term was when I was a little more confident.
During my 38th week scan, it was revealed that my amniotic fluid was low. I had to be induced. I was already 2cm dilated. When the broke my waterbag, I was 2.5cm dilated. Contractions was induced and within 1.5 to 2hours, I gave birth to Princess. No epidural was administered. I remembered when the gynae was stitching me up, she told me that for my next birth, I better hurry to the hospital coz I might just deliver in the taxi. The staff nurse and her commented that labour was quite fast for me.
Once stitches were done, the gynae and the nurses left the room to give hubby, Princess and I some alone time. I remembered looking into her eyes and feeling a rush of love going through me. This was what was growing inside me. She's so beautiful, so soft and so small.
Princess taught me how to love an undying love. She taught me how to feel for someone else like I've never felt before. She taught me how to care for another soul. I love her so much I could really feel it. This is what it feels like to have a child. This is love.
I remember when we visited sis-in-law in the hospital, her stepmum was there. She knew about my miscarriages. Before she left, she touched my tummy and said, "Take some blessings from here and may you conceive".
Shortly after, I did conceive. But upon conceiving Princess, I was hit with a turmoil of emotions I wasn't ready to feel. I was happy that I was pregnant. But I did not want to be too happy. I was scared that if I get too happy, I might be disappointed should I miscarry. I was scared yet I do not want to think about it.
Hubby was not spared of this too. I forbid hubby to talk about it. When he tried talking about my pregnancy, I would shut him off. I remembered sis-in-law congratulated me when she learnt about my pregnancy from mum. I broke down and told her that I did not want to talk about it.
Every ultrasound scan I prayed for a heartbeat. Once we hit the 3mths mark, I was really hoping that the foetus in me was still alive. I remembered checking my breast for soreness because the soreness actually soothed me into believing that I was still pregnant. At my 3mths ultrasound scan, they could not detect the baby via the scan on my tummy so they had to do a vaginal scan. Hubby was asked to leave the room. I was so scared when the radiologists was trying to detect the foetal heartbeat. Finally the found it. I cried and they asked me why and I told them about my previous two miscarriages. They assured me that everything would be fine.
Throughout my pregnancy, I spoke about it little. Towards my full-term was when I was a little more confident.
During my 38th week scan, it was revealed that my amniotic fluid was low. I had to be induced. I was already 2cm dilated. When the broke my waterbag, I was 2.5cm dilated. Contractions was induced and within 1.5 to 2hours, I gave birth to Princess. No epidural was administered. I remembered when the gynae was stitching me up, she told me that for my next birth, I better hurry to the hospital coz I might just deliver in the taxi. The staff nurse and her commented that labour was quite fast for me.
Once stitches were done, the gynae and the nurses left the room to give hubby, Princess and I some alone time. I remembered looking into her eyes and feeling a rush of love going through me. This was what was growing inside me. She's so beautiful, so soft and so small.
Princess taught me how to love an undying love. She taught me how to feel for someone else like I've never felt before. She taught me how to care for another soul. I love her so much I could really feel it. This is what it feels like to have a child. This is love.
Thursday, April 29, 2010
Baby Boy or Baby Girl
The issue of the gender of babies goes a long way back. In some cultures, they believe that having a boy will carry on the family line. Some people also believe that it is important to have a balance of boys and girls in the family.
You see, I'm blessed with 2 girls. And I am so glad that I have 2 girls. But somehow, people assume that I might be secretly wishing for a boy. And they are only being nice when they say "It's ok, your next one will be a boy" or "Try for a boy next time round."
Well, here's the big secret: I'm not hoping or wishing for a boy. Not that I have anything against boys. I grew up being the only girl. I had two elder brothers. It's great having brothers. They look out for you and no one dares bully you. But I've always wanted a sister. I wanted someone to share clothes with and share thoughts with. Go shopping together. You don't get these with brothers. So after I had Princess, I really hoped for another girl. Just so that Princess gets to experience sisterhood; one that I never get to experience.
But after having two girls, I'm very comfortable with girls. In fact, if I do want another one, I want a girl again. Not that I'm planning for one. The fact is, the issue of who to take care of the child will come up again. And also, after almost giving birth to Baby in the car, I'm afraid that for the next one, I might give birth in the car or at home!
People don't understand why I do not want a boy. They think I'm hiding behind this lie so as to mask my disappointment of not having a boy. So, I've come up with some reasons why I do not want a boy.
1) I'm very comfortable with girls.
2) I can doll up my girls but not a boy.
3) Reason no. 3 is actually the main reason why I do not want a boy now. It's coz, if I have a boy, then the boy would be lonely as he would be the only boy with 2 elder sisters. Then I would have to try for no. 4 and hope for a boy again. And if I don't have a boy, I would have to try again for no. 5. Coz I would feel guilty for the boy as he would feel what I felt when I was young.
Ok, you might say that I'm thinking too much. Maybe I am. But I just want to be fair for my kids and I want them to be happy. I've tried telling people these reasons but of course, no one believes me. So nowadays, when someone tells me that hopefully my next one will be a boy, I just look at them and smile.
Coz I know, I'm not trying for baby no. 3 anytime soon. The shop is closed...
You see, I'm blessed with 2 girls. And I am so glad that I have 2 girls. But somehow, people assume that I might be secretly wishing for a boy. And they are only being nice when they say "It's ok, your next one will be a boy" or "Try for a boy next time round."
Well, here's the big secret: I'm not hoping or wishing for a boy. Not that I have anything against boys. I grew up being the only girl. I had two elder brothers. It's great having brothers. They look out for you and no one dares bully you. But I've always wanted a sister. I wanted someone to share clothes with and share thoughts with. Go shopping together. You don't get these with brothers. So after I had Princess, I really hoped for another girl. Just so that Princess gets to experience sisterhood; one that I never get to experience.
But after having two girls, I'm very comfortable with girls. In fact, if I do want another one, I want a girl again. Not that I'm planning for one. The fact is, the issue of who to take care of the child will come up again. And also, after almost giving birth to Baby in the car, I'm afraid that for the next one, I might give birth in the car or at home!
People don't understand why I do not want a boy. They think I'm hiding behind this lie so as to mask my disappointment of not having a boy. So, I've come up with some reasons why I do not want a boy.
1) I'm very comfortable with girls.
2) I can doll up my girls but not a boy.
3) Reason no. 3 is actually the main reason why I do not want a boy now. It's coz, if I have a boy, then the boy would be lonely as he would be the only boy with 2 elder sisters. Then I would have to try for no. 4 and hope for a boy again. And if I don't have a boy, I would have to try again for no. 5. Coz I would feel guilty for the boy as he would feel what I felt when I was young.
Ok, you might say that I'm thinking too much. Maybe I am. But I just want to be fair for my kids and I want them to be happy. I've tried telling people these reasons but of course, no one believes me. So nowadays, when someone tells me that hopefully my next one will be a boy, I just look at them and smile.
Coz I know, I'm not trying for baby no. 3 anytime soon. The shop is closed...
Tuesday, April 13, 2010
Baby Having THE Flu
Urrgghh! Now baby has the flu. Well, according to the PD, baby caught the runny nose first and passed it to Princess who then also developed cough and then Princess probably passed the cough virus to Baby thus now Baby has cough and runny nose. But no fever, thank God.]
It is so sad looking at such a small baby coughing away. I hope she recovers soon. It is especially tiring for me. Now I set reminders to remind me what time to feed who their medication. I feel like I'm falling sick myself but I've got to stay strong for my girls.
I'm so tired. I'm still trying to get used to being a mom of two. It's tough finding time to spend with Princess at times as when we are having fun, Baby wants milk. But Princess has been really understanding. She loves her sister, always kissing her. Calling me to carry her sister whenever Baby is crying.
I love MY GIRLS!!
It is so sad looking at such a small baby coughing away. I hope she recovers soon. It is especially tiring for me. Now I set reminders to remind me what time to feed who their medication. I feel like I'm falling sick myself but I've got to stay strong for my girls.
I'm so tired. I'm still trying to get used to being a mom of two. It's tough finding time to spend with Princess at times as when we are having fun, Baby wants milk. But Princess has been really understanding. She loves her sister, always kissing her. Calling me to carry her sister whenever Baby is crying.
I love MY GIRLS!!
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