Monday, March 29, 2010

On feeling Like A Cow

No, actually I don't feel like a cow...I just thought that the title is catchy, that's all ;)

I've been on full breastfeeding since Day 1 of giving birth. I'm starting to feel tiredness due to lack of sleep. At times, Baby takes a long time feeding. I find myself dozing off at times while she's still at her feed. I'm not too sure if I'm doing it right. See, she will latch for a feed. Then she will feed on one breast for 15 to 30 mins, fall asleep and then she doesn't want to feed anymore. When I touch her lips or around her mouth, she'll purse her lips. So thinking that she is already satiated, I'll put her down. 5 minutes later, she'll start screaming for milk again. She'll then latch on the other breast for 15 to 30 mins, fall asleep and does not want to feed again. But 5 mins after I put her down, she screams for milk again. I'm not too sure if I'm doing this breastfeeding right. I know I have enough milk in me as each time after her feed, there is still smilk left over. At times, I will pump the milk out. I also realise that I am never able to pump all the milk out.

When I'm in doubt, I will check with the other mommies in the mummysg forum. So I guess I need the help of other mommies in this.

On another note, I brought Baby to the polyclinic for her neonatal jaundice check up . Her jaundice level has gone down to 190. Since it is coming down, the doctor - a very nice lady - suggested that she only need to come for check up a week later. Doc said that as long as baby is feeding alright (she's feeding every hour at times), pooing and peeing alright, then the jaundice level will come down. I am so glad that Baby does not have to keep on going for check up every day like last week. The poor girl had to have her heel pricked every single time. Pains my heart to see her like that.

Friday, March 26, 2010

Breastfeeding Obstacles

Baby is currently on total breastmilk. I told myself that for No.2, I really want to do total breastfeeding. I didn't manage to do that for Princess when she was a baby. With Princess, I did a combination of breastmilk and formula. That continued for about 4 months till she was totally on formula.

When I had Princess, I was clueless about breastfeeding. I know that it is good but I didn't know the challenges that came with it. I had mastitis twice. Oh, I can still remember the fever, the chills, sore and bleeding nipples. I didn't know how to manage all that. I didn't know who or where to ask for help. In the end, I gave up. I felt guilty when I stopped the breastmilk totally. Trust me, up till now, I still feel guilty and regret for not giving Princess the best that she deserved.

Learning from the experience I had with Princess, I told myself that No. 2 will be different. That I will perservere and not give up breastfeeding. I want to give my child the best. On top of that, I can save on buying formula milk. I did my research on breastfeeding. I went into forums to seek help from mommies who breastfeed their babies. With all that, I ventured into total breastfeeding as soon as Baby was born.

At KKH, I learnt from lactation consultants on massaging the breast and the tips on breastfeeding. I invested in an electric breastpump. Again, I perservered through sore nipples. I must say that though it hasn't been smooth sailing, the experience I had breastfeeding Baby so far has been so much better than the experience with Princess. No bleeding nipples, no mastitis. I guess this comes from experience and research.

However, there were other obstacles that I had to face when breastfeeding Baby - Human Obstacles.

First, it was my mom. She knows that breastmilk is the best for Baby. Naturally, for the first few days, Baby keeps on wanting breastmilk every 1 to 2 hours. And of course, I had people coming to visit. At the same time, everytime Baby wants her feed, I have to leave the guests to feed her. So mom suggested supplementing with formula coz she said maybe Baby was not getting enough from me. I told her that my breastmilk was enough but she insisted that since Baby keeps on wanting milk, then it must be that she's not getting enough. I told Mom that I will only feed breastmilk and nothing else. After awhile, I guess Mom moticed that I was determined and that Baby seems contented and therefore she agreed that I was doing the right thing. Now whenever people come to visit and I have to excuse myself, she will always tell the guests that I'm doing total breastfeeding and that breastmilk is the best for Baby.

2nd obstacle- Hubby. Hubby was not happy that I was waking up every hour or so at night to feed Baby. He said that I was not taking care of myself and therefore suggested supplementing with formula. Of course I said "No". I told him that I'm giving Baby the best she can ever get that she can never get from formula. Whenever I read anything on the benefits of breastfeeding, I will show it to him. Now, he supports me totally in breastfeeding.

3rd obstacle- Mother-in-law. MIL came over to visit and held Baby in her arms. After awhile, Baby started to cry. Hubby told her that Baby wants milk and that Baby was on total breastmilk. MIL said "That's good!" Then she stopped herself and backtracked and said "Oh, but when you go back to work, how are you going to feed her? Better supplement with formula." (MIL had volunteered to care for baby when I return to work)

I told MIL that I'll express some breastmilk that she can feed the baby with while I work. She said it's not possible. I told her that it is possible and it has been done and people are still doing it. She was not convinced. She then tried talking to hubby to get me to supplement Baby with formula milk so that it'll be easier for her when I return to work.

Haiz! I'm so tired of having to explain to people why I'm doing this. I know this is the best for my child and I want only the best for my child. So I am standing firm on total breastfeeding. Now, I'm seriously thinking of taking unpaid leave after my maternity leave so that I can continue breastfeeding Baby. MIL came over yesterday and asked me when I was returning to work and I replied "Next year". She was shocked but hubby told her that I was thinking of extending my leave. She then kept quiet.

MIL is a very nice lady. But why is it that breastfeeding comes with a lot of obstacles? Everyone knows the benefits of breastfeeding but they keep thinking that it is a hassle. Shouldn't I be the one who decide if it is a hassle for me? If I don't find it a hassle, then why should others bother. Urrgghh! So frustrating.

Anyway, I'm still determined to go on breastfeeding. I really hope that I will not give up even when faced with obstacles.

Thursday, March 25, 2010

Finally Gave Birth!!!

I gave birth to a bundling baby girl on 19 March 2010. Baby arrived at 3.29a.m. and weighed 3.275kg. Baby arrived a day after sis-in-law's baby. We ended up being in the same hospital and were discharged the same day. Great that I had company at the hospital!

However, I totally didn't expect baby to arrive the way she did. It was totally unexpected and I almost gave birth to her in the car!

I waited up for hubby that night (19 March 2010) as he was working late. Hubby returned at 2a.m. and I was online. Shut down my notebook and talked to hubby for awhile. At 2.30a.m. we decided to sleep. As I was lying down and trying to get some sleep, I felt pain in my lower back area. I thought that it was nature call and went to the washroom to relieve myself. But when I came out from the washroom, the pain was still there. I told hubby about it and he made me a glass of hot Milo thinking that it was just stomach pain. As I drank the Milo, I realised that the pain was just around the lower back area and when I looked at my watch, I noticed that the pain came every 5mins. I told my husband that I might be in labour. Called Mum and told her that we were sending Princess over to her place as I needed to go to the hospital.

On the way to Mum's place, I called again and asked for Dad to come down to get Princess from us as I didn't think that I could wait any longer. Reached Mum's place at 3a.m. Dad took Princess from us - she was asleep and luckily I had packed her bag in advance so all her necessities were in the bag - and we gave him Princess's bag.

Hubby then drove us to KKH. On the way, I looked at the clock and noticed that the contractions came every 2minutes. I asked hubby how long it would take to reach KKH and he said 15mins. I told him that I need him to reach there in 5mins. The contractions then came every min or so I thought. I could feel the baby pushing out even though my waterbag hasn't burst yet.

We reached KKH at about 3.20a.m. When we got out of the car, I couldn't walk anymore coz baby was pushing out. Hubhy wanted to carry me but I told hubby to get help - seriously, how could he carry me??!! Unfortunately, there was no one around. Hubby ran and got a wheelchair. I couldn't even sit in the wheelchair. I was in complete pain. Hubby rushed me to the delivery suite.

When we reached the delivery suite, the nurse took over and asked me how frequent my contractions were. They wheeled me into the delivery suite at 3.25p.m. Quickly got me undressed and dressed me in the hospital robe. I told them I'm GBS positive and had to have the antibiotics. Nurse tried to put the ctg while asking me not to push. I told her I couldn't as the baby's coming. The nurse then wanted to check how far my cervix has dilated and that was when my waterbag burst. Hubby said he could see the baby's hair sticking out at that moment. As soon as my waterbag burst, the nurse pressed the alarm for "Code ....". I've no idea what code it was. She asked my hubby to put the oxygen mask on me. I kept pushing it away so hubby had to hold it down. My gynae swept into the room just in time. One push and baby was out at 3.29a.m.

So to say, I wasn't administered any antibiotics as there was no time. Luckily baby is fine though I have to monitor her. So far, everything's fine. I'm thankful that my gynae was around. Gynae told my hubby that for the 3rd child, he might have to come earlier or I will give birth before I reach the hospital.

The nurses then came to congratulate me and kept telling me that my delivery was very fast. One told me that I probably had a very high threshold of pain and that is why I didn't feel anything prior to the first pain I felt.

I was just thankful that we made it to the delivery suite in time. I guess for the 3rd one, I better make an appointment to deliver before EDD. At the same time, there is a fear of having the 3rd one for fear that I might not make it to the hospital in time. That was the only time I learnt to appreciate my hubby's F1 driving skills.

At the same time, I have to say a big Thank You Doc K T Tan for delivering my baby! And thank you to the wonderful nurses in KKH! I've heard people complaining about the service there but seriously, I've stayed in the hospital thrice and each time, I felt that the doctors, the nurses and staffs there were all very professional and caring towards their patients. I really enjoyed my stay there!

Thursday, March 18, 2010

Sis-In-Law Has Given Birth

Sis-in-law has just given birth to a baby boy! I am so happy for bro and sis-in-law. Since she has just given birth, I will only visit them tomorrow. I'm so happy for them!

The baby is 2.4kg, born at 34 weeks. I did not ask bro whether the baby needs to be in special care as it is already night time and Princess needs sleep. I think both sis-in-law and bro are probablyy exhausted too. Should just let them rest. I hope that the baby is fine :)

Sis-in-law in Labour and Preparing Princess for the Baby

I'm so excited for my sis-in-law. Bro called to inform that sis-in-law's waterbag has burst. She's already at the delivery suite. She's in her 34th week but her gynae has already said that they will let nature take its course. Furthermore, they told her that long term use of medication to stop contractions can have a possible side effect on her.

I'm so excited for sis-in-law and bro! This will be their first child, another nephew to our family. YAY! I hope that the delivery will be a smooth one and that the little one will come out safe and sound. Ooohh...I love babies.

Can't wait for my turn. (talking to my tummy) "Hey little one, time to come out..."

Sent Princess to school today since she has recovered. Actually I didn't feel like sending her coz I enjoy having her at home with me. However, when the baby comes, I don't want her to feel that she is being sent because there is a baby. Therefore we have to make it a norm for her to attend school so that when the baby arrives, there wouldn't be any rejection on Princess's part. Hubby and I actually bought a present for Princess which we've been keeping in the car. We plan to give it to her when the baby comes and say that it's from the baby.

I still carry Princess, the whole 13kg of her. However, I did tell her that once her younger sis is out, I will not be able to carry her for a while. I told her that Daddy will carry her but Mummy still loves her. Princess is so sweet. She understands and I think that that is the reason why she wants me to carry her most of the times now instead of hubby carrying her. I really want to make Princess feel loved even when the baby is here. I've heard a lot of sibling rivalry stories and I really do not want Princess to feel that way.

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

Not in labour yet...

I went to visit sis-in-law yesterday. She was admitted to the hospital on Saturday as she was experiencing contractions. She's in her 34th week of pregnancy. Yesterday was the last day that the hospital was going to administer her medicine to reduce the contractions as according to the Senior Consultant there, since she has already been given a jab to mature the baby's lungs and her baby is already 2.6kg, there's no point in asking her to hold on to the pregnancy. Therefore, she is just to let nature takes its course. Hopefully everything will go on fine and well for her. Let's pray for the best.

Yesterday, I felt more cramps than before. But the frequencies are far apart and the pain will subside. I actually like feeling the cramps knowing that giving birth would be so near. My feet is so swollen that no shoes will be able to fit me. I currently wear sandals and I can feel the leather cutting through my skin as the day goes. Hubby asked me to get maternity shoes. However I feel that it is a waste of money since I am going to give birth soon and then the swell will come down. I don't know. I have not decided on it yet.

As the big day draws near, I can't help but think of confinement. With Princess I did confinement at my mum's place. I had someone to cook for me and do my laundry. Now that I am on my own, I'm kind of excited to do all on my own. At the same time, I'm afraid that everything will be too overwhelming for me. Actually I was also contemplating on forgoing confinement altogether...hehe...but mum told me that the one who will suffer in old age would be me. Seriously?? Is it true if you do not do confinement then your body will feel the effect when you are old? I believe many westerners do not have confinement. Maybe I won't forgo confinement altogether but cheat on it a little.

Princess is still coughing. Yesterday she coughed till she vomitted the phlegm out. I really hope she'll recover from this episode soon. If she still doesn't recover by tomorrow then I'll probably take her to the GP again. I used to take Princess to a paedatrician. But when she turned 2, I took her to a GP instead. I realise that the medicine they administer are the same. Of course, with a PD, they are better trained at handling kids. However, this clinic that I take Princess to has 3 docs. There's this one GP there who is especially good at handling kids. He takes time to explain and his explanations are always very detailed and clear. Princess always refers to him as "her doc".

Monday, March 15, 2010

38th wk, 2cm dilated and still no show

I don't know how to describe what I'm feeling. I'm 2cm dilated for 2 wks already and still have not given birth. I think the baby is getting too comfortable in the tummy. I really don't want to be induced as Princess was induced. I want to go through the natural flow of things this time round. I gave birth to Princess at 38 weeks.

I was feeling contractions quite frequently last week. But now, I'm not getting much contractions and in fact, I've been sleeping quite well these past 3 days. Oh, but when getting up from being seated...I can feel the backache. I've put on 14kg!!! With Princess, I put on 12kg. I really hope to give birth soon. It's weird coz I actually feel happy whenever I get cramps...haha

Princess is down with mild fever and cough. She just recovered from her cough and 2 days later, gets it again. Poor girl. I know she feels uncomfortable especially when she's asleep. Fortunately her fever is not that high. I really hope she recovers soon. She's at home with me today. Her school is closed for today. Even if it's opened, I wouldn't send her to school as she's not feeling well. Will send her when she's better.

Thursday, March 11, 2010

Leapfrog DVDs

I have 2 nephews- one 19mths old and another 3years and 1 mth old. Wonderful lovely kids. Yesterday, I went over to their place and brought along Letter Factory DVD. As we played the DVD, Princess of course knows all the letters. My nephews were also enjoying themselves and singing along while learning the letter sounds. Their parents were impressed and asked me to help purchase the DVD for them. As for me, I'll gladly to do so. Anything for the children.

I wonder why Leapfrog's DVD was discontinued from being sold in Singapore. It is really good and kids enjoy it.

Sometimes I wish and I can just be a SAHM and just spend time teaching my children and home-schooling them. Yes, I want to home school my kids. Do I have the resources? NO. Anyone has any idea how to go about to home school your kids?

Sunday, March 7, 2010

Princess knowing her letter sounds

I'm so impressed with Princess's learning. She's able to sound out all the letter sounds of the alphabet. All thanks to Leapfrog's Letter Factory DVD.

I'm getting her to identify the uppercase letters with the lowercase letters. So far she has mastered A to F.

In terms of reading. Princess likes to choose what she wants to read. I let her choose the books. I realise that after awhile, she can actually identify the words to the sounds they make. I feel that this is much better than learning through flashcards coz reading is never boring.

I just want to inculcate the love for reading in her. I myself love to read.

Saturday, March 6, 2010

37th week

Yay! 37th week today!

Was diagnosed with having GBS based on HVS during last visit to gynae. Was prescribed antibiotics and have completed the whole course.

Gynae attached a note to my appointment booklet. Was informed by her that I need to carry it around with me just in case I go into labour. Once in labour, that note will inform the medical team that I needed to be prescribed antibiotics via drip to reduce the chances of the baby contracting it. I really hope that everything will turn out fine. Gynae told me to quickly go to the delivery suite when I'm in labour.

With Princess, I was in labour for 1 to 2 hours before I gave birth so chances are high that baby no. 2 will be quite fast too.

Gynae did the cervix dilation test and told me that my cervix was already 1.5cm dilated. Yippee!! Nearing labour. She asked whether I wanted to be admitted but I chose to wait coz the pain is manageable and I really want to experience all the works. With Princess, I was induced as amniotic fluid was running low.

I'm not too sure whether I should start my maternity leave early since I'm already dilated. However, I do have the fear of my waterbag bursting when I'm at work. I'll be speaking to my superiors on Monday to seek their advice.


Alrightey then. Counting the days!!!